Hiding My True Self Away

Deep dark memories,
Hiding them is almost impossible,
Still to others I seem confident,
Maybe even unstoppable.

So how could it be,
That the only thing they see,
Is the fake and mask of me?

Am I becoming what I fear,
The one that cries tear after tear,
Alone in the dark with no goals to clear.
That will go on year after year?

So how will it go,
When I’m just laying low,
And the time passes very slow?

Did I make the wrong decision,
Have I made a big mistake,
Do I have to go on like this,
Or do I have to change for my own sake?

So how should I react,
When there is no clear effect,
And no insurance or a fact