I Your Husband Who Have Fallen
By Anonymous
I, your husband, who have fallen,
Once your friend, how far I’ve strayed.
Every holy oath I’ve broken,
And your sacred trust betrayed.
I cannot endure this anguish,
And my soul is sick with grief.
I have lost all hope or courage,
I’ve abandoned all belief.
This travail began so simply,
As I shared another’s lust.
And, too soon, I found more pleasure,
In my flesh than in your trust.
On and on I sinned, not blindly,
Ever faster did I fall.
I ignored how each new failing,
Hurt and harmed the Lord of all.
So I lied and tricked and cheated,
That you would not see my sin.
And each time you asked or offered,
I concealed the vice within.
I must leave you in my error,
I must go my separate way.
For my treachery would shame you,
Even if you bid me stay.
I cannot abide your goodness,
I can never love again.
And I only hope that death
Will signify a final end.
