Losing Control
By Jacqueline Diaz
indecisive, reckless. i’m losing my mind.
restless: my heart, my body…i can’t control.
these thoughts – consuming me, taking me over.
my head is whispering, “breathe darling breathe.”
my heart is crying, my heart is dying
my heart is sighing, “let go, let go.”
restless: my soul, “baby, let go”
confused, everything misconstrued.
so used, so broken
so much complication
so much self altercation.
indecisive: my heart.
my head is shouting, “LET GO, LET GO!”
my skin is crawling, my skin is begging
my skin is pleading, “don’t hurt me no more.”
restless, reckless, dazed
lost in an unnatural haze.
my mind is screaming, my heart is weeping
my body is traveling on a path; indecisive.
which way will it go?
away away, as far away as it will stray.
broken and still laughing, a walking contradiction.
restless: my soul…losing control.
