August, 1953

A nurse gathers up the afterbirth. My mother
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had been howling but now could sleep.
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By this time I am gone—also gathered up
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& wheeled out. Above my jaundiced face the nurses hover.
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Outside, a scab commands a city bus. The picketers battle cops
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& ten thousand Soviet conscripts in goggles
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kneel & cover their eyes. Mushroom cloud above the Gobi,
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& slithering toward Stalin’s brain, the blood clot
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takes its time. Ethel Rosenberg has rocketed
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to the afterlife, her hair shooting flame. The afterbirth
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is sloshing in a pail, steadied by an orderly who curses
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when the elevator doors stay shut: I am soul & body & medical waste
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foaming to the sewers of St. Paul. I am not yet aware
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of gratitude or shame.
I do know the light is everywhere.