Changes

The day starts like any other day.
We will be changed forever, by one knock at the door.
My youngest daughter tells me the police are here.
My mind is racing and wondering why.
The officer speaks.
My brain cant comprehend their words!
The air leaves my lungs with a horrific scream!
Heart stops!
Legs give out.
I fall to my knees screaming for my baby girl!
A Mother should never have to identify their child’s body!
Friends there with love and support.
Without them I’d be totally lost!
Broken, Bruised and Mutilated they stole her outer beauty away.
Her rosy red cheeks turned to grey.
Arrangements made.
Date is set.
Time has come for Friends and Family to say their last goodbyes.
I watch as everyone leaves one by one.
I feel no comfort or peace inside.
It is now my turn to say my last goodbye.
I can’t make the words come out.
This isn’t real!
It has to be a horrible dream.
My mind is racing what she must have been thinking and feeling.
As I look down at my precious girl,
all I can think is why her instead of me.
I am blinded with this enormous amount of hatred and no will to go on.
Then I remember, I’m not the only one going through this pain and loss.
I try to console my little girl but she is inconsolable.
My mind is racing
I am lost in my head and unable to think.
The Murderer who stole her life away will go on to have another day.
My mini-me is gone forever and I have nothing left.
I am brokenhearted and empty inside.
All I want now is to be with my babies.
Ones in Heaven and my youngest baby is so far far away.
Whatever God has planned, its out of my hands.
I will never understand why this has happened to our family and to all the families past, present and future.
I do know one important fact.
We are all in this club and we are MADD!!!!
Think before you drink!