Dear Eating Disorder

Dear Eating disorder,
my closest friend and worst enemy
No one knows what you do to me
I use you to numb the pain
but your plan is to kill me and win your way
Your mind games are hell
but I take the abuse
One day I hope I can put out your fuse
Bring on the pain, I like it that way
Lour me, brain wash me suffocate with shame
Shh it’s better that nobody knows
Oh eating disorder we keep secrets like pros
one day I think that we can be through
the next day I’m back down this dirt road with you
My closest friend and worst enemy
You’ll always be apart of me
Maybe one day you’ll change your ways
and together we’ll share more healthy days