Self Hate

When I sleep it haunts my thoughts and my night terrors
which cause me to scream in agonizing pity.
It is burned into my mind because i came to
once and for all end the best thing
that we had experienced in our lives for over a year
now… each other.
but you fell into me sobbing heartbroken
and i hate myself for it, because i turned my back
on you and left you to scrambling in
your own self disgust and your puddle of wet tears
left on the ground for what you knew you had done.
but i left you there and i hate myself for it.
when i look in the mirror i cannot stand what i see
it makes me sick…
And when i wake up screaming in the night,
i know it is of this.